Bliss

I bend over reading a book with a piece of chocolate in my hands. I feel big eyes on me and a reassuring warm weight on my legs. I turn from my pages and I see... My two month old baby looking at me , deeply with those beautiful eyes, and my 2 and 1/2 year old son resting on my leg! 

Sisterly love

So I asked akshaya yesterday how she likes having a sister. She told me its nice but also boring! Haha! Seems she can't wait for baby sister to grow up a little so she can take her with her to the playground and go down the slide! 

But currently what she loves about having a baby sister is that she can hug her and cuddle her:) 

Chup Chup Aishwarya

I woke up to the sound of chup chupping at 4  am last night- it was baby aish chupping on her fist! Such a delightful sound! 

Also little princess has. Started moving in her sleep- I found her arm overhanging the bed on the faraway tree book when I awoke in the morning. 

Conception dates

Akshaya- 10 April 2008

Ashwin- 10 October 2010

Aishwarya- 8 may 2013 

Friday 28 mar- the good and the bad

The bad first- I hit both akshaya and ashwin :( 

When both were scared- now isn't that extra mean? They are only 2.5 and 5! 

Akshaya- terrorized by me into drinking milk

Ashwin- ha! He jumped and his foot accidentally bumped Aishwarya on the head while she was feeding. He knew he did wrong and looked at me with large eyes. When j told him off he yelled go away-it was defensive reflex. But it got me mad and i hit him and he bawled and that set off Aishwarya! Sigh. 

The good now

I fit in my old jeans! 

I found oolong tea

Best things about being a mum

I really thought this yesterday! 

Being a mum means-sitting through all three kids release of poo! Ha- morning was with baby- feeding her and feeling her release her big job, Ft was with ashwin - in the middle of lunch he rushed off to bring his potty to the room for big job , and evening was with akshaya at the public toilet in the library! 

Lesson in perspective

Kids teach us perspective and the way to see the world - they teach us by putting themselves on the line - for they stand to get hurt, to have their spirits crushed - as we respond to them and their words and actions - un pre meditated - straight from their being 

Ashwin sells ice cream

So little boy ashwin tries selling ice cream to me every morning. Today he came by and asked me what Ice cream I wanted- told him raspberry. He handed it to me- all pretend of course. I pretended to put the ice cream in my mouth when he suddenly remembered he hadn't collected money from me! So he came to my mouth and tried to take out the ice cream saying 1 dollar Aatha. I gave him the pretend dollar then he put the ice cream back in my mouth! 

Bf woes

Beast feeding is supposed to a pleasurable bonding activity

But here I am wincing as she suckles sore nipples blocked ducts this is just pain

Morning was spent with husband grasping and squeezing and milk was spraying - paal abishegam he says - there I was feeling blessed to have a hubby who could inflict such pain! But it's true- without that it would have become unbearable

Feel a fever coming on

Hope this passes soon! 

Aishu baby growth chart

At birth : 2.89 kg

1 week old: 3.05kg

1 month old: 4.83kg

3 months old: 6.07 kg

5.5 months old 7.42 kg

Aishu baby

Sleepy head falls asleep while feeding:) and gets so mad when feeding is interrupted or delayed 

Screws up her face like ashwin used to- so charming melts the heart! 

I love my children

I love my three little darlings!
they just fill my heart with joy
one sulks a bit but accedes to most things for which i love her

one doesnt do what we want unless he wants it to, but he smiles and charms his way through it all!

my littlest one - I guess I'll find out soon enough)

Spray away!

Om spraying the room even as I speak- milk lumps;( 

Bootiful no more

Ashwin's mazhalai mozhi is quick vanishing;( 

He says beautiful now not bootiful

Rice not lala

Carry me not nana

Too fast he'd growing! 

Aishu's first tentative smiles

Yesterday she flashed me a rare tentative smile. Could have been Z fluke but then she flashed another sweet smile at my mum too! 

This morning she was so cheerful when I wished her good morning! Close to smiled or laughed at me 

That's her thoughtful look this morning! Seems so meaningful! 

Then... I just looked at her and these words came to mind

"I love you so much my darling! "