Ashwin and the things he say

He is into dinos big time now
And time travel
When do you go back to asks my dad
If I wanted to die I'd go back to 65 million years ago
Why would you go back then if you wanted to die?
Coz a meteorite hit earth 65 million years ago. If I go back then id die

ashwin's games

ashwin has made up a new game called poison water fire

fire wins water
water wins poison
poison wins fire

it's based on scissors paper stone and is really quite fun!

he did well in his show and tell. he came up with a shark joke yo insert into his show and tell to engage his audience
very clever. we hadn't taught him that

for Tamil he s going talk about his grandfather i.e. my dad. it's so sweet and touching haha

Akshaya growing up too fast

something all parents say
my dad said it at thirteen when I wanted to go play badminton I'm a friends house

my sweetheart asked me to buy her a bra yesterday! she's just about 9 and a half! so am pretty sure she doesn't need it. skinny stick that she is! but it was cute and sweet.

baby

baby akshaya
she's not been well.
blood in stools for more than a month
and she's going for a scope next week

when I talked about it with my own doctor whom I had gone to see for antibiotics
coz akshaya can't fall sick in this next week
and the burden is on me for I'm down with a flu
I was quite troubled and distracted and worried
more than I had let on
I could see worry etched on saro's brows. and akshaya burst into tears. I had to keep smiling for them and be practical
but after speaking with my doctor and being left alone
I was near tears
for I realised how sad and worried I was
and I needed someone to talk to

but saro was shielding his plate as I sneezed into a tissue.
so I left them all and have retreated here to write. surprising dry eyed though I was in tears earlier on

and I have to endure sounding all cold about things to my mum. i cant be giving in to my worries plus I am I'll. I feel awful. so just explained the facts and heard her own worry.

but I know God is looking out for us.
she's amazing my daughter.
although she cried by the time we got to the sai baba temple she said she was almost looking forward to the hospital stay coz I said wed download movies and take games and books.

she's afraid now of the ghastly mixture she has to take and of the injection to put drips in.

she's a sweetheart. she asked me not to tell her grandmaas she's scared. doesn't want to worry them and doestm want to hear them comforting her as it would o my worry her more. instead she dug into a chicken burger and fell asleep delighted.

to be a child!

I hope the scope reveals what the problem is and that it's not some rare chronic disease that has to be constantly managed. I hope it's something that can be cleared up quickly. I can only pray.

I know God is looking out for us coz that's what he does. and if by his grace she gets better in a week there's no need for scope.
if there is a need for  a scope I shall have to take it that it's best. and that it's to avert some thing far worse.

is this faithful thinking. Faith?
or positive thinking?
or self delusion?

I don't know. it's what I've got though.
adios

aishu

her word of season
dishgushting - with such relish

ask this dumb appa to move

why do you keep waking up in the middle of the night to bathe (this at 6am)