night terrors

I had fallen asleep when suddenly my son cried out. He was afraid to go to school. Afraid of his Tamil teacher who might yell at him if he forgot his work

He thinks he remembered all his work but what if he had forgotten something 

The tears rolled down 

I'm sorry I woke you up aatha in the midst of the tears 

Hard to console the fella in my half sleep

Rubbed his back

Told him he had done his best after all

If she shouts take it in one year out the next etc etc 

Part of me wanted to take it up with the teacher! Stop terrorising my son!

But then id  be the terror mum haha! 

Besides if I told my son I'd talk to the teacher he would stop telling me things. He doesn't want me to fight his battles. Just be there and support him.  

He eventually fell asleep. 

A little later the little girl work up crying. Seems she had hit her chin in her sleep!

Ha. Very hard for a mum to get to sleep. 

A few min later the eldest wakes me up. Asks me to come to her room. 

Dad needs to sleep on the big bed to protect his back. 

I had dreams about arranging books and tensions of working from hom and all

.all in all not the best night for sleep haha! 

All in all I dodnt

I feel so blessed

I am reading Fahrenheit 451. Just read anne of green gables. 

These wonderful characters 

Clarise. Anne. 

Who ask tough questions of the everyday that everyone else takes for granted 

Those who feel so much

I feel so blessed to have a child in my own life who asks questions like that and feels so much.he makes people uncomfortable maybe but he is there so real.  I am blessed 

my son

I can only love my son as I do

And show him my love in ways he allows

If he should light on me

That's my grace 

So proud of him!

Watching Free Willy with my son was an experience to cherish. I had to hug him close and wipe the silent tears that ran down his cheeks, as he grappled with the fact that Jesse had been abandoned by his mother. That shook him.  Also the killer whale, and its terror at the kids banging at the glass, and its cruel separation from its own family.  

He feels so much for misunderstood people and creatures. He asked me at least 10 times,  "are you sure this has a happy ending?" 

It turned out to be a half happy ending for my son - whale got to be with his family but Jesse had to part from him.

And so it is with life. 

At the end he said 'second time I watch I will know what's going to happen so I won't cry!' We will see I guess.