babies sick

it's so depressing when our kids are sick

I'm in hospital again with akshaya 

and she does not seem to be recovering as quickly as she did the last two times she had a flare

I'm trying to stay above is, take it in stride 

everyone has their problems

but I'm just thinking about those parents who have kids with no chronic problems. 

really blessed to have only the usual teenage problems with kids. not health problems. 

I pray she makes a full recovery. I worry about all kinds of things. Will she get married have kids, live well, be healthy do all the the things she wants to

I pray to God she does. 

I'm scared I'm getting resentful too. of things out of my control 

yesterday we came home. home sweet home. and I lit a lamp for god.  and my hands were trembling despite me. I'm more affected than I let on. I had to close the door and cry. for akshaya for me and saro. the stories do help. I told myself rama had to suffer to become the person he became. and my dad. and so too my.daughter. my job is to support her and I pray for strength to do that

fun evening with Aishwarya

yesterday after a game of badminton 

aishu and i went over to rocky masters to buy back dinner

she was charmed by the place either the greynsofas and dim lighting

we went in chose our food and when I tried to order takeaway the kids meal could only be had there. 

so we had it there and while waiting she climbed into my lap at the corner sofa and we both just enjoyed each other so much

I was kissing her and she was just curling into me

was the best part of our day and so unexpected! if ashwin had been there he would have been very conscious of such public display of affection so we cherished this all the more haha

we bought a take away and left

then at home the baby ate up all the brothers food and I did a mad dash back to buy another plate for him haha!