night after night

every night my baby cries and my heart breaks

 he doesn't just cry he wails.

i wish I could help him. 

my youngest suggests cutting everything for a month and see

I'm thinking he wants to study beyond just doing homework

I should fix those study times with him then so he doesn't feel so lost

his wails are from the pit of his stomach. he only wails like thst when he feels scared and out of his depth. 

I want to hug him close and tell him its going to be ok

soccer dreams

I'm here now at barca academy

ashwin is in soccer tryouts

I remember him going for soccer classes when he was younger at Koran

the ball would roll to his feet and he still wouldn't kick it

but he'd say he wants to go to class

so I thought it's not for him

now he is 11 going on 12

we watched the world cup in Nov. 

he got hooked. a

and he goes down to play the game with his friends

and now he is here at the academy 

nervous coz he has so little training 

let's see.

soccer seems an aggressive sport. 

he is not thr aggressive sort 

he can run thought

it's nice watching him again like I used to when he was younger 

now he gets the ball and kicks it

the mothers worry I wish inhad put sunscreen for him! 

he can run!