depression diaries 2

been learning more from her psychologist and acupuncture therapist

walking is good. but cannot force.so trying to work it into her day so she needs to walk a bit to get around. some hits some misses 

she does draw energy from people around her though she may not admit it so spending time with her as soon as I'm.home having her siblings crash the party and chittering chatter

talking about childhood memories these help

she reminded me to massage her at critical accupressure points 

she is planning ahead hoping to take on part time jobs at bookshops and volunteer at the writers Festival 

she did ask whether she would have these kinds if low days on holidays.  I said she may but we could draw strength from the nature that will surround us there. pray I'm right. 

pray that being with trees and the sea and wild life esp dolphins and seals and maybe even whales may help

she tends to be a little fearful of animals but hope she will draw strength from them too. koalas and kangaroos

we did the grounding exercise yesterday that helped as well

5 things we can see 

4 things we can feel 

3 thing we can hear 

2 things we can smell

1 thing we can taste 

and she has this set of thinking traps she can catch herself from falling 

so much so much. 

thank you God for being with us

results day tomorrow

we are planning a lunch date

 regardless of his results.

to celebrate his efforts and our support 

psle2023. 

akshaya got 262. that's crazy high. she is clearly one of the brightest in her school.  I must tell her that. 

ashwin is already is sota. very happy. now praying for a good result. 

el 1-3

tll1-3

math 2-4

science 2-4

6 to 14! huge range ah well 

depression diaries 1

so my daughter has depression 

she is 14 years old. Will be fifteen in a month and a half

she has had thoughts of self harm 

she has low energy 

she  says she is bisexual 

she has been in and out of hospitals a lot  these two years

she had to be admitted for  uc

then she had unexplained dizziness for months  that made her miss most  of sec 3

amd she had nerve pains. 

she has done well in the exams she did take which has boosted her confidence 

she has anxiety attacks 

I think sometimes she like is fine being sick and depressed in that she does not really want to get better. she admitted that today 

I have diff ways of coping and helping her. I'm not sure if what I'm doing is right or wrong 

I don't know for example if I should give up work for a year to help  her thru this

I get annoyed when people don't want to get better 

and I may not  be understanding enough 

today I had  to get firm and insist on her doing  things. asked her to please  say what she  likes to have dates with.

come for a walk with me to buy the fruit she wants.  

she was just lying in bed curled up lethargic. 

I am struggling to know how best to help

do I let her be

do I force her

she has a powerful mind

such that even if she engages in activities that could be helpful she may resist the help. 

why wouldn't people who are sick want to get better?