Tough being the eldest

I realize I may have unreasonable expectations of Akshaya coz she's the eldest of three. I tend to forget nevertheless she's only 5.5! Not even 6 years old!

I also let her get to me so easily- like about my cooking. She said she didn't want my chicken at macs without even trying and I got super upset - yelled at her made her cry a little

Thinking about it, can I blame her? Ask any kid at macs whose chicken she wants likely it will be macs chicken! Really must not take things personally! 

Part time Mother

anyone feel like me - a part time mother?
sigh.
Yesterday my son asked - Aatha, are you going to work? Don't go aatha, I need you.
My daughter, baby daughter, she cried as my helper pried her away from me to put her to bed

While I feel so loved, I also feel bad

This morning, I overheard the hubby singing I love you, You love me to my son in the morning, as I was getting ready in the shower - I want to be there to sing that to him too!

and what about daughter no 1? I feel I am neglecting her. I do.
I barely even hug her now when we sleep - coz baby keeps me by her side.
She is always so happy to be away from me, it hurts sometimes and yet I cannot blame her
today, she was reluctant to drink her milk - a regular morning feature - and I was getting snappy with her, telling her not to make an issue of an every morning deal - just get up, brush teeth and drink milk - don't make it as issue - not helpful. she cried. then along comes the hero hubby, the one who sings barney songs to the son in the morning, and cajoles her to drink by faking astonishment at how fast she can drink the milk,and voila, its done! she's drunk it in a blink of an eye, to a round of applause from the hubby, who even ropes in younger brother as part of the cheerleader squad.

Then she comes to me with pained expression and whiney voice - I feel sick aatha, I always feel sick when I drink the milk so fast
so I invite the whines, is that it?

anyways.. daddy is the good parent, I'm the bad part time parent :p

Aishwarya-

Aishwarya is the answer to our unarticulated prayer - not romantically it poetically put but the sentiment us try and powerful

Thank you god answering our unasked prayer - you know god what I mean. 

Please help us - guide us- in bringing up our three precious gems as you see them. Let them be giving and forgiving trusting leading beautiful individuals who help to make this earth a better place - just contributing to your plans in helping this world the people around them

Thank you god! 

Happy birthday Ashwin!

3 years ago, on this date, I was at the hospital, eagerly , excitedly, awaiting your arrival

40 weeks and two days - you were happy and snug inside me! Not showing any inclination to come out

19 July was the date then- doc agreed to give you a little push

A little push was all you needed

Out you came in an hour and a half

Sweet and cheery

Straight to drink milk

Round

Cute

Quick to screw up your whole face to cry 

Quick to break out in  the widest of smiles

And now you are three!

How did you get here? 

You sat up without rolling over - missed that milestone but caught up on the next

You learnt to say cheese and melt all our hearts

You crawled like a puppy - very fast and all over!

With your curly hair and kissable cheeks 

Baby Krishna crawling on stage 

You made up words to tell us things 

Lala and noo noo and nana

You still can't get R - it's baby language still!!

You negotiate your way - just one more time Aatha, one last time Appa! 

You pull at our heart strings - lie down with me Aatha, can i hug you Appa? 

You fight with your big sister but miss her the instant she's not here

You konji your baby sister - bunga bunga baby! 

You are the joy of our life darling baby Ashwin

You are still and always will be our sweet baby! 

Happy birthday my love! 

May God bless you always!