Yesterday night, I snapped at my daughter
I was very sleepy. I wanted to feed Ashwin to sleep but he was fussy. And my daughter was at my bed too, asking for more space and generally demanding my attention. Plus I need to be careful about akshaya when she's near Ashwin when she's tired - she tends to hit him sometimes. So I asked her to go to her room and leave me to put Ashwin to bed - she said or did something - can't remember what, and I snapped at her, saying, Akshaya! Adi Vaanga Porae - my poor darling's face crumpled (but thank god, she didn't wail like she does sometimes) and then she said, 'I feel like crying, Aatha' - she said two or three times and then I asked her, 'why' - she says, 'coz you scolded me' - aw man! I hurt her feelings- she's teaching me that she is a real little person with real feelings and that I can't just snap at her or shoo her away like she doesn't matter or that her feelings don't matter! I was properly chastized. my sweetheart. I sent ashwin out with run and hugged akshaya - guess part me was wanting to spend some alone time with Ashwin - I get little of that with akshaya around - but still, I should have been kinder to her - all she wanted was some love and attention from her mum after all. everyday, she teaches me thing.
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