two months

just about 2 months ago my ashwin and I went cycling and he said "aatha tell me when it is safe to cross then I will do so. 

I felt so important. so needed. so protective. heart bursting really. 

fast forward to 2 months later, today, he tells me, I will go home first okay, and sets off. I follow slowly behind with the youngest. 

just 2 months. he has grown. 

today he subconsciously reached for my hand as I walked him to school.

I consciously appreciate the soft pressure of his fingers in mine, not knowing when he may pull away