it was touching, heart breaking qhen aishu said I can only be happy if I know he is happy and safe and how can I know that
I just cannot accept that he has gone
several storied and questions later, she has gone off to watch a movie with her brother leaving me to ponder and wonder
I have to set aside my doubts and fears and worries and despair to attend to theirs.
I told them stories I had told before bit they needed to hear
about the kid wanting the ice cream from the ice cream truck opposite the road and how oblivious he is to the truck bearing down the road. how the mother has to hold him back from what he wants for his own good. they laugh. they get it.
I top up the story with the image of ravi toddling straight to the sea and jeroen running after him to hold him.back.
we are like children and have to trust God is taking care of us even if we can't understand it
she says your stories are funny aatha. I was happy to hear that.
and the story of ganga throwing away the kids into the river for they had only one day left to live before getting moksha
and her questions
will she be at peace at moksha.
and I yes, because she would very one with God and know everything and likely love lace will be there to greet her and thank her for love and say sorry for the pain but he had things to do.
again she laughs. she says doesn't moksha to be just her sitting in front of God and meditating that would be boring. and I say yeah it will be a party.
.then she asks can I take dog dog with me and I try to explain how the path to moksha is to renounce attachments in this world. don't think she got that.
I talked to her about the aathma seeking the paramathma and she brought up the concepts in the movie soul. how in the movie the soul takes on the properties of the body. e.g. playing music and speaking in his voice when 22 entered the body of the musician. whereas we believe the soul determines the powers of the body.
that's pretty complex.
like I said she has asked me questions and now is chilling. I'm puzzling. but so proud of them. they love asking me difficult questions! they love to see me trying to figure out the answers. I love the. for these challenges they give me. I love them. for making me believe in the stories I tell them
for I too am fervently hoping he is safe. either in someone's house being loved and fed. or quickly and with minimum pain dead to end this life a d attain moksha or move on..
when o said God protects the innocent she asked me how do I know he is innocent we don't know what he might have done! I love that about her! that she can think such things and still love him unconditionally. ashwin tells me it's not true God protects the innocent. so many innocent people die all the time. that's why I brought up the ganga story
then he said those who suffer and die, they ate not reaching moksha? and I said not really. sometimes we have to pay for sins we did unknowingly or in our previous lives. hard to explain.
aren't these wonderful questions ans conversations to have with 7 and 19 year olds?
aishu is like what's not to like about life? why would we want moksha. I jad to talk about the cycle of pain and laughter and how that would be a release. a peace.
just amazing. I love them. please God protect them. and our dearest lovelace.
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