fears

I may as well write down my fears 

I fear I fear

she may by dying

that's a bit extreme. that's what I worried about last night 

but we are all dying 

still not before her time 

and not with so much pain and discomfort 

now I worry 

she may become wheelchair bound

I worry deeply about her quality of life 

she has so much to give 

so much love

only 14 her life cannot change like this 

please God

you gave her ulcerative colitis 

and now something new? 

dizziness ans buckling legs 

did the earlier one not incapacitate her enough 

you want to hurt her more 

I've already said she can skip a year of school 

but I need the money

I don't dare give up my job now

not when she needs so much more care that may cost us a lot 

I'm