depression diaries 8

it's Jan 30

and still akshaya dreads school everyday 

I'm not sure why 

she says school gives her a sense of dread. wants to meet psychologist more often. Once in 3 weeks too long. doesn't want to see Andy though 

and history gives her dread too

but she is okay chatting in the car with thilaga and all

ah she doesn't like that we have changed her room. can understand.  her room was her refuge. 

really don't know whether I'm doing things right or wrong? siva said possibly her room location within the house is not great for her. this is not a precise science but I'm a desperate mum

so used opportunity of saro's parents coming to change  rooms

but i have 2 unhappy teens in the house now 

if this was  a normal situation I would just tell them as hosts we must give our best to our guests. and that hollow ashwin is sacrificing a lot more.  but here I'm dealing with much more.  I've taken away her safe space so she can't even look forward to  coming home from dreading school 

I dunno god I really dunno

at the heart of it all I just want her to be happy again, at least not depressive  

please God help her open up her mind and see possibilities not pitfalls and please please please guide  us, guide me , in  all that I sa, think, feel, and do